Run ThirtyGirl Run

I'm training to the Nike Women's Half Marathon at the end of October, here in San Francisco. I'm a little bummed because I twisted my ankle last week, so I am sore. But all in all I am excited.

I'm training with Team in Training, and working to raise funds for the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society. They are searching for a cure to blood cancers.

Officially, training starts on Saturday. I'm a little nervous that I am going to be the slowest. But, as noted on my todo list, I am trying to get over it.

today, the high priestess / card of wisdom

this morning i pulled the the high priestess card (the 2), the card of wisdom, spirituality and enlightenment. my walk was a meditation. my prayers ask for openness, a way to the path, adventure. my prayers say thank you to the universe for all that i already have.

oh posting lapses

My dear friends. I've been unvelieveably inattentive to my blog over the last two months. My puppy, Santiago, takes up massive amounts of time. And my love life has not improved. But, my work, school, dog and friends are good. I'm preparing for my 10 year college reunion - which seems a little scary. And for a 3,000 mile drive across country from here back to the golden state. I am most certainly in procrastination mode, as I am thinking about burning CDs as opposed to finishing a paper on immigration.

oprah's talking about being 30-something

i'm half-watching Oprah talk to 30-something women in the US and feeling glad that she's talking to us, and kind-of annoyed by her interaction with the muslim woman she just spoke with. in any case, being in the 30-something age group is really interesting because women are at such different places in our careers, lives, families and strauggling with the same, but also really different issues. It is a puzzile

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"We have only this moment, sparkling like a star in our hand - and melting like a snowflake."
--Marie B. Ray

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There came a time when the risk to remain tight in the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.
-- Anaïs Nin

happy new year

i was at a soirée tonight where the idea of new year's resolutions was being contemplated. Are they a good idea?, asked one person. Another responded that she thought they were idiotic because no one ever keeps their resolutions and that in fact, the whole idea of setting them in relation to a calendar year is silly. Someone else said that he didn't make resolutions but identified a few goals for the year or intentions.

I too have stopped making resolutions. That doesn't mean I lack goals. My to-do list is captured in the sidebar on the right side of this page. It just means, behavior change without a goal is hard, and making resolutions to start every morning with 100 sit ups is bound to lead to failure and disappointment.

Happy New Year! Did you make resolutions, set goals, or intentions for the year?

Some New Year's things:

• Non-Resolutions
  
• New Year's Reading
  

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“Life is the art of drawing without an eraser.” -- John W. Gardner

barriers

In the last week, I've been told by people I consider friends (including an ex) that i:

• ...am very private
  
• ...have a lot of barriers
  
• ...have a lot of walls
  
• ...try to pretend i'm not deep
  
• ...have very clear boundaries which keep people out
  

this has left me feeling sad that people don't feel like they really know me. glad to be writing a blog, but also really wondering what it is that maintains that separation.

tattoo

I am considering getting a tattoo as part of my year of adventure. I have thought about it for a long time, but haven't done it, in part because of fear of pain, and in part because i really want to know what i want on my body before I actually do it. I have a friend who got one after she got sober, and another who got one while she studied abroad, and others who have gotten them at different times, for different reasons.

I want something that speaks to how i want to live the next years of my life: fearlessly, passionately, compassionately, lovingly, presently.