Thursday, November 30, 2006


ok. i have to go on some dates. i am tired of not having people to go out with. i think i am seriously going to ask people to start setting me up on dates. i think there also need to be more parties involving single, available, normal people. and i need to make an effort to go to the things that i know about.

i think i am at the end of my saturn return - and that i took myself out of circulation for awhile. i just needed to realign and get my bearings, but dang. i am ready to meet some new people. ready for what comes next.

more about saturn returns:

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

no ink yet

So I had the consultation on Wednesday and went to see a preliminary drawing on Sunday. The consultation was good - I love the artist, but I still think the drawing needs more work. I'm going to play around and look for some more images that get at what I want a little more.

Monday, November 20, 2006


I'm going to get a tattoo consultation on Wednesday. I'm a little scared about the whole thing, still. But I think I am going to dive in, meet the artist and see what she thinks.

Sunday, November 19, 2006

on adventure (2)

If we do not find anything very pleasant, at least we shall find something new.
– Voltaire

Thursday, November 16, 2006


I am considering getting a tattoo as part of my year of adventure. I have thought about it for a long time, but haven't done it, in part because of fear of pain, and in part because i really want to know what i want on my body before I actually do it. I have a friend who got one after she got sober, and another who got one while she studied abroad, and others who have gotten them at different times, for different reasons.

I want something that speaks to how i want to live the next years of my life: fearlessly, passionately, compassionately, lovingly, presently.

Tuesday, November 14, 2006


This morning I awoke to emails from the two strange men in my life. One recounted his dream of visiting my hometown and the other invited me to a movie on Friday night.

I feel like ignoring them both, but that feels like a bad idea. It would be ideal to move through this as smoothly as possible.

Monday, November 13, 2006

Emailing can be so problematic

Is it an adventure to date your boss or just idiotic? I don't even really think I need to ask the question aloud.

Sunday, November 12, 2006

Quotes to start the week

"Adventure is worthwhile." - Amelia Earhart

Saturday, November 11, 2006


Last year, I tried Yesterday, I quit. It's all just too weird. I got the most bizarre people responding to my ads. One who told me he, "voted for Bush because I knew he'd have the balls to push the button." Another who was a total racist. Another who was a parolee. And so on. None were married, as far as I know, but... it took way too much time with too little reward.

So, after being unsuccessful there, I'm quitting. I actually though I had quit a month ago, but realized that somehow I'd been automatically renewed. Now, my friends are egging me on to be a speed-dating guinea pig. I'm undecided about the quality of this idea, but probably will jump in. A few adventures are a good thing.

How do people meet people? This is my question. Somehow I don't meet them, unless they are 40 year old guys who want me to be their mothers. Time to pull out the dominatrix tricks. Less compassion, more edge.

Friday, November 10, 2006

My boss?

So, I think my boss is interested in me. He sends me little notes asking about pancakes, and weekend activities. They are peppered with :) smiley faces. I can't figure out if I am misinterpreting him or if he really is trying to start something.

Have you seen that movie Shopgirl? Some days I feel like that - disconnected from people my own age and for some reason bizarrely interesting to older men (and women).

Sunday, November 5, 2006

Thirty is still youth...

says my ex girlfriend. Age is such a funny thing - it plays tricks on us. Some days I feel old, some days like I'm 16. Some days like I'm ready to settle down, other days like I don't know a damn thing about the world.

Is that a sign of getting older, or just my random self?

I started this blog to chronicle the start of my third decade of life. To share my adventures and mis-adventures. To propel myself into my 30s in a fun, expansive and present-moment way of being.

Wednesday, November 1, 2006

16 again?

This feels like the replay of my life at age 16 - boys falling in love with my best friend. She was perky and flirty and the boys nearly tripped over each other to date her.

30 needs to be the year of stepping out of the sidekick role. I am so over it.